“That mention of Feuerbach and joy reminded me of something I saw early one morning a few years ago, as I was walking up to the church. There was a young couple strolling along half a block ahead of me. The sun had come up brilliantly after a heavy rain, and the trees were glistening and very wet. On some impulse, plain exuberance, I suppose, the fellow jumped up and caught hold of a branch, and a storm of luminous water came pouring down on the two of them, and they laughed and took off running, the girl sweeping water off her hair and her dress as if she were a bit disgusted, but she wasn’t. It was a beautiful thing to see, like something from a myth. I don’t know why I thought of that now, except perhaps because it is easy to believe in such moments that water is made primarily for blessing, and only secondarily for growing vegetables or doing the wash. I wish I had paid more attention to it. My list of regrets may seem unusual, but who can know that they are, really. This is an interesting planet. It deserves all the attention you can give it.” – Gilead, 10 % on Kindle
Jan.1, 1973, Monday night.
New Year’s Day, but it wasn’t any big thing in our family, in fact, we all went to bed about 8:30 last night – we were all so tired from camping at Kribi the past four days!
I have to go back to TASOK so soon – Yaounde on Wednesday and Kinshasa on Friday. In a way, I’ll be glad to get back. But, I’m a little down about leaving – so many problems and hang-ups there at school, sometimes I feel so lonely and mixed up.
If only I could find God again!
Sometimes these days, I feel so hypercritical, and I really hate that! If I’m to BE a Christian, I want to be a real, strong Christ-follower and not fake or wishy-washy. Often I feel like I’m at the edge of something big and powerful but am afraid. My life is so worrying, I’m so changing and moody. I want God to come to the real center of me, to the center of my soul and mind.
A relative wrote me, about how people seem to want to share with others only about their strong points, and not about their failures.
She’s right, and, especially nowadays, I think, in this age of social media and image management (odious phrase!).
It’s hard to be vulnerable, and transparent, but not with God!
One thing we can KNOW is that God will ALWAYS receive our pouring-out, to Him, with respect and compassion, discretion, unconditional love and understanding. He will be our best friend and confidante. There is, truly, no better.
from Adele Calhoun via her Spiritual Disciplines-Practices that Transform, IVP – “People in a hurry never have time for recovery. Their minds have little time to meditate and pray so that problems can be put in perspective. In short, people in our age show signs of physiological disintegration because we are living at a pace that is too fast for our bodies.” – ARCHIBALD HART
from G.K. Chesterton
” the results of the Fall include separation not only from God and from others, but also from ourselves. we “come apart” as persons, unable to genuinely accept ourselves as we are. Our consequent struggle to be, or to pretend to be what we are not explains much of our deep discontent and personal suffering.”
from G.K. Chesterton